It used to be that whenever I thought about unconditional love, I thought of it in a relationship aspect. If there is anything I have learned over time, it’s that unconditional love can come from anyone in your life. For me, you all have been the biggest example of unconditional love for me.
I thought I knew what was good for me. I thought I knew who he was. I justified his actions with phrases like “… but I love him”, “… but he’s never hit me”, “… he’s got a lot of stress on his plate right now.”
I was your dirty secret. You got the thrill of the relationship with me, without the commitment. And for some reason, I was content with that.
October 5th will always come. More years will go by, and it will still show up. It will still remind me of what I went through, and that’s okay. It will also remind me that I am a survivor. That I have the ability and strength to make it through whatever situation comes my way.
In some strange, bizarre, crazy, fucked up way…. I learned who I am. I learned that I am so much stronger than I ever thought possible. I learned that I can endure some of the greatest pain and still come out of it alive. I learned that I have a spirit that cannot be crushed by the cruelty of others.